THIS day........

Getting back in the swing this week has been challenging, lots of moving parts at work, and home.....but after two days I am feeling my sea legs again......I have my workshop this week with my gals and am looking forward to that......thinking I am going to tackle my deck this weekend, and put most of it away.....I am going to hang onto my gazebo space some.....it has a hard top now.....and I am putting the chairs under to have a little fire area under there....it has the canvas curtains.....maybe even during snow we can pull it off and I can put my little heater out there......we shall see:) But much of it needs to go away for now, and Saturday looks like decent weather, and I am also planning on mowing, maybe for the last time this season:) My lawn is showing the effects of the rain and our time away, yikes! My kids are with their dad, so no fall revelry for us this weekend, so it is a perfect weekend to do it......my sweet girl is hanging onto Santa too, she has been talking to me a lot lately about it all, her friends have been placing doubt in her mind, and many of them no longer believe, .......but she is hanging on.....I thought we had reached that place last year and it was our last believing year for her but she gave me one more:) So I will oblige.....planning on doing some amazing holiday weekend for her to enjoy the magic for another year.....:) Her brother will believe in Santa all of his life, which I also love for us:) I love the balance in her and her childlike wisdom.....she is SO wise.......well beyond her years, grown in so many ways, but also seeks to stay a child and loves to play:) It is a unique and lovely combination.......During our week away she didn't touch her phone all day, until right before bed for a little......seeking to play with the littles, and hang with all of us, and be so present.....love that about her......I think she feels the grief some in childhood finding her......feeling herself growing and changing......and wanting to hang on, and I am happy she is:) Her friend next door came over last night, and they have a playhouse in my shed, that they made in the loft it is super cool.....and they found wood, and wanted to spray paint it and draw on it and I let them.....they have a ball playing and that is what it is about for sure:) And as I think of all the things pulling at me......having their say......I hang tight to THIS day above all else......an anchor I adopted early in this story......I can do ALL THINGS in THIS day:) When I start to anticipate or get too far ahead, hints of overwhelm can step forward and it is a futile place for my energy.....heating season is looming due to the price of oil at the moment......hard to believe it is so much....and the cost of it all.....braces are on the horizon too, but I continue to find the way to manage it all, and am focusing on the blessings, and the way appearing every day.....so today I am deeply breathing......captivated by the story.....the story of us, my kids and I:)......and feeling the absolute gift it is to my life........and grateful to still be teaching after all of these years and loving it.....my class is fun, and we are having a great year so far.....and some of my new routines are going well too.....and some of the restructuring I have done.....so today IS THE day.....the only one to consider and focus on.....and my faith and trust is strong:) Walking in the divine orchestration that is our lives.......going to get back to my meditation and prayer time this morning too now that I am home, I missed it this past week, it didn't seem to work while I was away:) THIS day and repeat:) Have a good one:)