I can't hear you anymore......

I think one of the rabbit holes that captivates me is the shift in energy between people.....I sat at my table last night, and met with my son's supports coordinator as he is aging....and it is a daunting thing to discuss......what adult life will look and feel like for my sweet boy......what makes sense for him.....where does he fit in this world.....where is he able to live his best life, and what does that look like....and of course after she left I felt the aloneness in it all.....knowing that I do not live in a world where I can pick up the phone, and call his dad, and ask him how he feels about it, or problem solve any of it with him, as the father of my children.....none of it.....and it is due to so much, things I won't get into......but it is also frequency.....we are living in a way that we no longer understand one another and likely couldn't communicate if we sat down and tried anyway anymore......our radio stations playing their own station, and not a compatible one in any way.....a person I spent 20 years with now a complete stranger......and that entire notion fascinates me endlessly......like what actually happens, the woo woo part lol:) The energetics........we attract people by our energy I believe that......we influence or connect with others by our energy......but what happens when that ends.....where does a soul tie go, I am so curious.......because I have had that happen a few times in my life.....being SO close to a person......their knowing me so fully, and my feeling so seen and heard and understood and vice versa.....and then our frequencies changed........and boom strangers......and I have marveled and mused on this before because it fascinates me in a true sense....and I suppose if you are a person that doesn't believe in energy it might make you pause for a minute....and be hard pressed to explain that piece......so to me it feels that as we evolve and grow, so does our energy.....and it attracts what is vibin in a similar space, and repels what isn't.....and we never know when that shift happens......when we are physically near a person for the last time.....as we walk our journey......I said goodbye to my last ex, in front of an airport, 1200 miles away......not thinking at that time it was the last time.....but it was.....the last time our souls would be near each other in that way.....in a way where we were still energetically vibin.........today finding us strangers too......and isn't that so interesting?? Although I remember that day when he was driving me to the airport I was distracted some while we were talking and listening to music, feeling a sadness I could not pinpoint, a sadness that was more than just leaving my boyfriend at an airport, a soul goodbye that made me feel uneasy at the time. And my other musing surrounding this is that it has always been so.......that energetic thing has always been a thing.....even though it feels like we are living in a time where evolution is happening at a more rapid rate....at least that is how I feel, I feel that despite how quickly this year has gone by, I have lived 100 lives lol, and I suppose you could look at it two ways......feeling concerned that some of the people you love today might not be a part of your story tomorrow due to energetic shifts........or look at it like I have come to.......trusting that energetic shifts are redirections and divinely placed.....and when a person is no longer for me, the divine lets me know very clearly......and while some of it has been painful it has been a blessing.......every time......showing me what I needed to SEE.......so I guess we should enjoy our people while we are vibing........I have been blessed to be vibing with a good amount of friends who have been with me for decades, what a gift that is:) It also makes me excited about the possibility of falling in love again....and the kind of man I would attract today, after I have done the hard work of healing, and facing my demons and own BS head on, once and for all.....being in a different energetic space.......and I think it is also why we don't run into certain people anymore when we are out and about, even if we live in a small place......because that is always curious to me.....but I do not believe it is by accident......it is all energetics......so last night had me feeling a moment......wondering why my ex husband and I can't just be friendly for our kids, and co parent in a way that makes sense.......but also realizing that we are both on our own journey......journeys that are not aligned, and don't energetically live in the same place, so it makes sense I suppose that that is the way it is.......our energetic cord being cut much more quickly after he left due to what happened in the aftermath......and I suppose what took the sting out of last night and the enormity of what I face with our son, is the fact that my trust and faith is strong.....I KNOW that his journey will continue to evolve beautifully, and perfectly, and that the way will appear for him, and I need not feel the weight of it.......handing over the weight to a power much bigger than me, and I think he and I will explore and take a look at some of the options out there and then decide what feels best for him......My only wish for him is to have a life that feels like HIM.......one that he loves and one that fills him up......and I trust that that is what is unfolding as I type this.......Amen...........Happy Wednesday:) And the person I learned to hear finally was me too:)!!!!!!!!!!