John Cusack.......

So for the record if you asked whether I find John Cusack physically handsome or striking.......the answer would likely be no.......but there is something about him right?? Attractive in his own right, and he for sure captured my heart all those years ago when I saw "Say Anything,".......the romance in that movie, that boombox though:)......and I saw an event the other day that he is hosting locally, and it was intriguing, and one of my FB friends had gone to one not too long ago too.....and posted about it, and it looked intriguing......but so much of him and all of it has been interwoven in my story......private jokes, and moments of romance related to that movie in both my last relationship, and my marriage.......they both knew how I felt about it all......and really if you knew the stories and details surrounding my experience with this 80s nostalgia in my love stories, in those stories, you might feel it has been ruined for me......all "In Your Eyes," and stuff.....but it just isn't......all of those movies of those decades have stayed in the fabric of who I am......in my soul......reminding me of a simpler time and place......love made sense in a way it just doesn't today......it seems these days finds us inundated with people being unfaithful in love, chasing the next best thing......feeling dissatisfied, not doing the work of love in their relationships, choosing to chase new ones instead, the world seeming to deeply lack love....and romance.....the REAL kind being a fairytale, one that only exists in rare places.....and I suppose the fact that I still love and appreciate all things John Cusack.......is due to the fact that I refuse to lose my belief that IT exists....a love like that.....real and true.......romantic......slow and simple......not poisoned by our modern age.....I have mentioned seeking a "Gen-X" love story......one where love and loyalty rule the day.....passion and romance, not rarely but consistently......consistent thought and regard......and somebody holding a boombox in the rain wouldn't hurt lol:) and it is curious that my having private jokes and experiences related to all of that in my previous relationships wouldn't feel tainted to me now.....their using it in a way that doesn't carry the things I seek......a moment of touching down in that kind of energy but not sustaining it or meaning it.......and maybe that is the work of it all.......refusing to allow the things that happen to us affect the way we view the future and possibility in our lives.....using our newfound clarity......for sure.....but never letting ourselves be changed.......jaded.......I believe......I really do, despite, all of it......and I always will......today finds me grateful to be off, headed to dentist appointments! And getting ready for my week ahead! Enjoy the day:)