I tried IT!!!!!!

I had written the other day that I was fixing to try the "One Brain" method for further healing, and yesterday I met with a lovely woman and did just that.....my kiddos got to hang on their devices in her living room.....she was recommended by somebody I know.....and I took us to Texas Roadhouse after to thank them for coming along for the ride:) Having gotten to squeeze mowing into the morning......and I have some background in muscle testing, particularly the kind she uses.....and so we chatted for some time about my life story, my journey, and the things that have deeply affected me......I also talked to her about the only physical thing that I still battle on and off, and currently it is flared some....and it is a tightness in my shoulders and neck.....and it presents, in a literal way, representing ALL I carry on my shoulders......and to be honest for the longest time in this journey since my divorce, it stopped being an issue, despite all I carry, and I have eased up on meditation.....and need to get that consistent again, and it seems to dissipate that way, I am finally using my birthday gift certificate too this afternoon today to get a massage:), it is also from tech stuff and when I lift I feel a strain there, so it is a few factors, I need a new bed pillow I think too.......but I digress.......so she then asks, through my muscle feedback, which of those is still an issue.......and here was the most validating thing for me......I speak a lot about healing and particularly my healing.....and feeling as though I AM REALLY healed in so many places despite the story I have lived.......and she validated that......showing that so many of those pain points were no longer affecting me......and that felt so assuring to see that my body is not holding unnecessary issues from the trauma I have walked through.....so a few time periods when I was super young came up.....and I could pinpoint what they were....and she then has you read this paragraph related to it, a spiritual one, where you are giving your former self the words they needed then to navigate it, giving your brain what it needed....and at certain points for certain things....she had me imagine a color filling my body and releasing it.....and she asked some poignant questions that I needed to answer and think about, and made me think more deeply about them causing a revelation.....she also told me that my kids and I all have a little upturn in our noses, speaking to the fact that we are positive people, which I never heard and is fun, and true we are lol:) So I spent almost two hours with her, and it went by in a blink.....and as we worked through it all my shoulders improved......whether it was in my mind or not......but it felt real.....and she picked up on my role as the "savior" saving others....and the balance needed in being mindful of my needs....she was very intuitive.....in so many ways....my feeling really seen, and understood ,despite her not knowing me......the betrayals I experienced with my ex and my recent ex came up as still being present, but not the ending of the relationships or my divorce or loss of family....I have worked through those pieces.....and that is true!! It is the betrayal that hangs me up on both accounts......so we released some of that......and there were a few other smaller memories that were lingering in my body, ones that made sense to me....things I know I struggle with consciously......so we tackled those....and similar to Reiki, I left feeling much lighter.....and as if I had accomplished something big.......and with some homework to work on releasing those betrayals........and she said because I am such a deeply feeling and loving person those things are harder to release.....and that is how I feel too......they are so foreign to how I function, that I don't have the internal structure to process such a thing......so I will continue to work on releasing those two things......having made peace with so much of the rest in both stories......she also shared that it showed up that I process from my mind, and my clarity, and processing is real and clear, but I need to get in touch with the root emotion in those circumstances more too....and I agree there too.....allowing myself more of that......I had done that a lot after my divorce.....allowing the deep pain to be expressed.....but I tend to catch some of that emotion before it hits sometimes.....so I will work on that.....but I am so glad I did it, would do it again.....feeling lighter today.......feeling validated in my experience and healing......feeling like what resonated what spot on......as if we had known each other forever.....I also plan to take my kids back to work through their dad leaving and the pain there.....I think it would be hugely helpful.....I had no residual issues related to my son and the trauma of his birth and entrance into our world, which I knew:) I have fully embraced and accepted all of that and our special journey......so much of so much, was so affirming to know that I have DONE THE WORK of accepting my lot and my challenges and healing their impact:) She was impressed with my self awareness , my resilience, and my positive attitude and my mindset........so I will continue to embrace anything that brings me closer to wholeness.....and healing......and use it to help others:) Happy Sunday! xoxo Off to church for us, and some deck clearing, massage, and food prep!