Hey Phil.......

So this was interesting.......I sorta connected with a Phillip who lives 4 hours away, a pilot, ......and really when I say connect, it was pretty much each of us liking each other's profile, and the way we looked, and lamenting about the distance between us.......it is always the far away ones it seems, or the cute super short ones lol:) I do not think we will continue chatting, likely letting the distance as a barrier to getting to know one another some.....but either way that part doesn't matter as much as what it represented to me.........as it presented itself, I felt an openness to it......one that I haven't felt in awhile....and perhaps that was/is the point of us touching down for a moment in each other's stories..... it was likely there to just show me that I am healing to a place of being open to any of it again.......to be honest..........for me........a long distance relationship, driving distance, is kinda perfect at the moment.....it suits this season of motherhood I am in, single motherhood......and mothering nearly full time......not much time for much else......and truthfully with the way my life is at the moment, I kinda pray that I do not find love right now lol:) Because how would I navigate that?? I won't leave my kids with babysitters to go date somebody, so when??? And as I have said a million times, I trust the timing of it all, and the divine hand in my love life.....so none of it bothers me.....the logistics being challenging, but my trusting that they will work out when the time is right....and really building a significant friendship first with somebody is what I strive for anyway......having learned the significance of that last time despite it ending the way it did.......I still believe friendship should be the foundation of it all.......I guess I was taken aback some, by my willingness to be more open to dating as this came across than I have been in a long time.....it is an area of my new life I am not all that comfortable with......having acclimated to this single life.....but feeling dating is a foreign land indeed......what I know is that for now....my kids are my priority above all else......always and my girl being at an age where she needs me present.....and I committed to them both long ago, and nothing would deter that. However I do know that I have the right to find, and experience love again in this life......so I am stepping out of the details.....they are not up to me.....my only job is to remain open to the possibility of something making sense in ways I have yet to see, or understand:) As for me this week, I am dialing my nutrition back in again this week! Being back from vacation the week before, and not having time to prep properly, required a week of easing back into my healthy eating lol:) So today finds me ALL in, overnight oats ready to go, among the rest, and ready to get back to it all! Enjoy your Monday:)