Uncomfortable Places.......

I am up early again.....hoping to head to in -service later, after having a doctor's appointment this morning that holds some weight.......and will dictate what the rest of my day looks like, and I am leaning into the faith in it all.....and in my journey.....I slept well last night which was awesome, the full moon doesn't always allow me to do that so well:) And adjusting to my work schedule has rattled my sleep some this week and all the moving parts of my life....but yesterday I spent in-service with my new team.....the presenter was amazing....such good stuff, it is related to our math instruction, and I found it so helpful and eye opening in so many ways......and being with my new team was strange and lovely.....they are so welcoming, and I got to meet the entire 5th grade department because we trained together......but I felt a little like the "new kid" lol:) Despite going into my 23rd year of teaching at my current school, it felt fish outta water some......like a tourist in a foreign land.....and I passed my old team a few times yesterday and their love of me, and grabbing quick hugs, and their genuine feeling of missing me felt good.....because I miss them too..........life is like that right......and so again being welcomed in a new space genuinely, and being missed in an old space genuinely, is where ya wanna be right?? :)Couldn't ask for more than that.....but I am very much in between worlds at the moment.....shedding my 4th grade life, and stepping into my 5th grade one......and it feels a little uncomfortable.....I have a lot of "NEW" to learn and absorb.....and it extends well beyond the curriculum........it is the new energy dynamic on my team.....the politics of it all......how it all works......who does what......what role everybody plays.....how it all fits together......how they function in their day to day....because remember I have "known" them for the time they have been at our school, but you don't really "know" anybody till you work closely with them in a school.......so it will be a learning curve for sure, and my favorite para, and my ride or die one will be in 5th with me, which feels nice too:) The para that was my para, during Covid, after my ex husband left....and the one who saved me......she picked up all of my slack when I couldn't, after returning to work so soon after all of that.....and I am forever indebted to her indeed......xoxo........so my group chats have shifted lol:) That's been a thing lol, allowing for new dynamics, and new things, and new circles of connection......did I ever mention that group chats are one of my least favorite things on the earth lol:) Too many people in one spot lol:) A barrage of notifications, yikes lol:) I prefer one to one communique.....but it seems group chats are a part of our lives now and so I adjust......but the dynamic is for sure shifting some as we head into a new year......I am excited to implement some new things in my new space and flow.......and I am hopeful it will make a big difference in so many ways......so yea I am uncomfortable some in some spaces....and with some life stuff, but I believe that is where growth and expansion live.......and that feels important.......the dynamic I hold with me old team is rare.....that I know, and I am not going to compare my new one to that, it would not be fair as time takes hold......I just think it will be all its own, a totally new one.....:) And that feels just fine, so Cheers to new challenges:) Enjoy your day:)