This must be IT......

I was feeling some kinda way last night as we had our movie night.......I had grabbed the popcorn and candy from the Dollar Store, and buckets and we set up a stand for the kids, and my girl made tickets to enter the home theater, with our movie on it "Shrek"......adding a magical layer.....and I looked at my own growing kids, and felt this pang of grief thinking of the effort to make magic having an expiration date when they are grown......grateful for the young littles in my life to help me exercise that part of me.....but wondering if all of my life will hold magic.......and hoping that it isn't finite.......that it can be for all of the people I love, young and old, all of my life, and I will never have to give it up.......and that my life will always be full of people to share it with.......making magic is one of my favorite things to do, for myself and others.......and I will chase it with abandon each and every day, and maybe that is the point of all of it.....two things speaking to me all at once, or maybe a few things speaking to me......not to hold too tightly to any phase of your life as they all evolve and change.....and embracing all of the seasons is paramount......and allowing for them to change and ask different things from us.....also not letting anybody affect your energy or any circumstance......perhaps one thing that always makes me grateful is that despite the ugly things that have happened in my life, or to me, I have been blessed to remain loving and stay in the light.......divinely assisted in doing so for sure......I do not take credit and I am only grateful that I have been divinely blessed in that way.....in fact I can argue that it all has made me chase MORE light, MORE magic, and get to the business of REALLY living:)......inspiring me to stay more rooted in peace and love.....maybe more than ever....and maybe that is the way through it all.....what people do is on them......I have said that and felt that so much.....but to REALLY embody that is survival......the things I have witnessed could have taken me over and I just refuse......we give our power away if we allow the actions of others to rob us of our experience here......I remember being gutted after my ex husband left, and it took me some time to get my feet under me and realize that lesson, but I have never repeated it.......having more ugliness find me the last 5 years and refusing to allow it to diminish my life......so this morning is our last day here.......I will enjoy my day and soak up the last moments......Uncle Dave headed home this morning and I hugged him, hoping it was not the final time.....feeling the emotion catch in my throat, tears in my eyes....but embracing the magic and love we shared this week and feeling so grateful for his love that has for sure touched mine in such beautiful ways:) I am a blessed woman, always and I never forget that.......Happy Friday, we made it:) Enjoy:)