The struggle is real..........

Whatever crud has a hold a Gabe got me last night.....I do not think it is Covid, doesn't feel like it to me.....maybe a sinus thing.....but I don't feel so hot.....and this morning I am remembering again to float.......my planning on staying home today to care for Gabe worked out......because I don't feel well either now and because of the power outage in Milford......that would have thrown a wrench in my whole morning, my trying to get to work around school being closed for Gabe......and my mom being out of town.....I likely would have had to call out anyway......so this morning I am working on getting my head straight for the day.....laying back.....surrendering to what is......my intention was to go back to work tomorrow and have my mom on deck if Gabe still needed to be home.....seems the antibiotic they gave him yesterday is helping, so I think I will do a tele-visit and get the same......I had plans for the day but maybe laying in bed is what I need today.....just being gentle with myself and taking good care of me.....I am sipping my coffee and my magical tea I make when any of us are sick.....it no doubt has magical powers;-) Hoping my girl Mads dodges it all.....I am learning though, and sometimes needing to remind myself, to not fight what is.....that is so simple yet so hard to do sometimes.....when we want things to be going a different way......and sick kids and working mom stuff is a part of life.....especially now post pandemic and back to the germ pool;-) the kids are circulating and picking up the crud again;-) I think last year the only thing we had was Covid at Christmas......and the kids had a stomach bug.......not too shabby......hoping we are getting our bout with crud over with early and the rest of the year will be smooth sailing:-).....all of it also makes me know that as a country we need to do better about sick time.....it doesn't feel good to stress about using days, when you really need to, and if you run out you need to take time without pay.....it is important to be able to take the time you need for yourself and your family.....so again I won't stay too long in that thought.....cannot be changed.....so the only day we have is the one right in front of us.....and for today I am making a doctor's appointment, grateful for same day appointments, will rest in my bed....be good to me.....maybe binge some stupid television, read a book......just lay back and float......and keep trusting........and do what is best for myself and my family:)