The squeeze......

This is the part of the year that challenges my single motherhood like no other.....heating season is rough....,especially with how cold it has been.....and I remember feeling this squeeze last year......Post holiday and in the thick of heating season.....and it is temporary.....I know that, and it passed smoothly last year.....a couple of months from now and warmer days are upon us......and each time I feel the squeeze of January and February and March I am reminded of all the folks out there in my spot with less means....and feel for them so deeply.....the world is an expensive place right now.....food, just all of it......and I hope everybody is warm enough out there.....xoxox ......I had recently gotten oil.....I normally get 150 gallons at a time....and keeping it at 60 normally makes it last a decent amount of time....and I supplement with electric heaters....my electric has been reasonable luckily......so I went down again to check the gauge, and I am on E till they come to my area on Wednesday....they only come once a week, and I called last week knowing I would be in this spot.....so I turned my heat back last night, and kept the heaters running overnight....which I normally don't, but did in the hopes I can make it......the tank is not fully empty....sort of like when your car light comes on for gas;-) still some there....but it is an uneasy feeling.....I am going to call this morning, and speak to them to see if they can make it sooner.....I called the service last night and it would have been a $125 service fee to come out last night with my order.....and truly due to how bitter cold it has been, I think maybe they should be out in areas more often, more freely....but I am sure they have good reason for their policy.....so the squeeze is upon me.....my least favorite months of the year......here they are........and I am leaning into breathing....and trusting.....and knowing it will pass before I know it.....in fact I am quite certain that I wrote a similar blog about this a year ago lol;-) It feels quite familiar.......Everything always works out, and it will continue to.....one day at a time, one blessing at a time, and one miracle at a time, Amen:)