I make no apologies.....

I make no apologies for the journey I have chosen these days........I used to deeply wonder how I fit into another person's life......working hard to remain in certain situations......shifting and shaping my world to FIT into another person's world.......caring so fully what somebody else thought, instead of what I think of them?? Spending more time contemplating the comfort of another person than I did me, and now I don't.......for anybody.......and besides the freedom that it makes me feel, which by the way it does:), Just mad wild freedom, I think the psychological piece is enormous......I know now that if I want to continue feeling the way I have, and creating a life that feels like me more and more each day, and growing, and all the things that I need to live THIS life......no longer shrinking back to make it all work, or being subject to opinions or thoughts about how my life should be.....Not forcing a thing.....living in the vibration of me.....knowing at each turn where I should go and what I should do.....Then I need to be so clear and committed to being true to myself and what resonates.....and of course I want the people I love to understand, we all want to feel understood....and for the most part now my band of people truly does.....there are small pockets but I think that is necessary due to certain circumstances.......However I do not find myself feigning friendships or relationships that don't resonate.......And the growth that that shows me is huge.....I know now to let what isn't for me to fall away......to not try and make something work that is clearly not, and the other piece is to not let it bother me, just accept what I am recognizing and let it go.....no longer holding space for people in my life that do not hold the same values and ideals......not that they have to be like me or believe like me, I do not mean that:) I love learning the differences in people and pondering their life views and exploring them.....but they also need to hold that sense of curiosity and willingness to explore it all too......no righteous hypocrisy if you will lol:) And for sure loyalty in return, the same loyalty I hold for them......But as I have eased into fully owning myself, and being conscious in it all I have found that I am walking in the alignment of my story......like a radio station that is coming in clearly......no static.......no drama or strife that comes with being in the wrong relationships or friendships.....and I have written about this a few times as this latest evolution has taken hold......and today it feels more important.....the more I can hear that radio station playing or maybe FEEL it, the more things are clicking into place.......3 more girls joined my next round of workshops yesterday......and I trust that my message, my energy, my flow will attract exactly the right people to my door......I am no longer living my life for anybody else......my kids remain my focus but they only supercharge the feeling of being in alignment......because the three of us are magic together:) I am me.......more me than I have ever been, and while I understand that nobody has lived the last 5 years front row except my kids, so there will be places that perhaps are misunderstood, or maybe just harder to understand.....but the point is that I understand......fully......I have done the hard work and growth I have needed to be right here......even when it broke my heart.....and I feel like stepping into the resonance has been a reward.......the synchronicities opening right up, as I passed the tests I was being handed......the universe asking me "Are you REALLY her???" And my showing that I am:) Choosing what was hard and what required a lot of me, over what was easier in some ways.......but actually that "easier" is a mirage.......because you pay for it in the end.....letting yourself stay in situations you don't belong in comes with a price at some point, one way or another......and I have learned that having that price come on your own terms feels better than waiting for the overdue bill to come........so today after an emotional weekend, I am feeling the growth that has come, the growth I have chosen.....and knowing that I will continue to choose what is hard and right over what isn't.......because there is so much treasure to be found on the other side, like a treasure room full of gold coins and riches beyond measure, filled with the stuff that really matters:) and I am worth it and so are you:) Don't forget:) Have a great day:)