Railing against injustice..........

What is justice? Justice implies just behavior or treatment, in a nutshell fairness......now I know I wrote two other blogs about surrender and fairness, and while I believe in all of it, and it is my main goal on any given day, it is still beyond difficult. To say that I have absorbed an insane amount of injustices in the last two weeks doesn't even begin to cover what has happened in my life......Today was a straw that came close to breaking my back..........such a tough pill to swallow. I know in my mind that I need to float, remain calm, find my higher self and have her take me by the hand and walk through the storm in front of me.........pull me up, so I don't sink low, but it is so so difficult in those moments. Those moments that are fueled by anger, by fear, by injustice, and by such deep deep hurt, that I almost can't find that part of myself. I search for her every day. She is the part of me that has sense, the part of me that knows what the right path is for me, the part of me that is the adult in this situation.....the part of me that makes clear decisions amid the chaos.......still she sometimes gets lost below the noise and I have to scream to her, at the top of my lungs.......so that we can once again rise above. The injustice threatening to pull us in each and every day. To pull us into storms that are not ours to be a part of.........That higher self part of me is so kind and compassionate, she seeks to understand, she seeks to make sense of a situation that just doesn't make any sense........she wants what is best for everybody at every turn, she is the part of me that I am the most proud of. She has self control, she has dignity, she has grace, she rises above........on the days I have trouble finding her I never panic that she is gone for long........I know with a quiet certainty that she will meet me again, when I open my eyes to meet a new day into the unknown........