My blog..........

I really cannot express how having this blog has truly saved me.......and how it has focused my journey and my healing in a huge way..........and how grateful I am that the notion to start one came to me in the most crystal clear of ways.......I just knew I MUST do it.....no gray area, totally clear............it had been on my bucket list for a REALLY long time......and there had felt like there had been no time.......not space to devote to such a thing........and then there had been some inspiration to do so at certain points in my life but then not......no real catalyst to keep it going for any length of time or start it to begin with......and then the earthquake hit and I KNEW I had to do it.......like with every fiber of my being this blog HAD to be written and my story was MEANT to be shared publicly, and not remain in shame and the shadows at all......not even for a moment...........this story needed to be in the light and to be heard and shared.......this blog has been a vehicle for my healing, a vehicle to find my voice, to find out where I am each and every day......giving me the time and space to look into my heart and soul and see what desire, feeling, or thought wants to come forward......and I always trust that there is something there to be heard and talked about, something to be looked at........and I have been so humbled by all of you that read it faithfully........like truly humbled.......it is amazing to me and makes me feel so fulfilled that people are interested in my journey or impacted by the telling of it.....that they are changed somehow by what I am doing........I get messages telling me just that......that my blog inspires others to try harder.......to dig deeper......to think about things in a different way and WOW just WOW.........by my having the ability to articulate my pain and feelings in print I have given a voice to others.......saying the things they wish they could or the things that they feel..........it feels super humbling and makes me super grateful.......I have been so lucky in my life to be able to use my words to convey what is in my heart and soul.....whether I am speaking or writing.......and it is a gift that I have used many many times.......and a gift that is never lost on me.........it is the way I feel I can truly express myself and have always been able to........My goal for this blog is to continue it for. a year......and then see.......and the blog entries for that year I would like to turn into a book with some narrative piece along with it.......I hope that goal sees the light of day, a book has been on my bucket list for a long time too........it is time in this life for me to look at that bucket list often and start checking those boxes.........this blog has been one of the biggest gifts to me as a result of the carnage that has come to find me.......and I will always be grateful for it.......and honor the power it holds.......thanks again for reading y'all:)