Coming up for AIR........

This morning finds me typing this from Koinonia........a peaceful retreat center right outside of Port Jervis........I have come here one other time a few years ago.......and wanted to come to another retreat a year or so back and my childcare had fallen through......and when I was here I loved it.......the peace......the quiet.......the connection of us all and our faith.......and so I am grateful to be here.....my kids are hanging with my parents.....my mom has her Christmas Bazaar that she does through volunteer work at her church......so they will have a ball.....and maybe giving myself permission to ask to have this weekend to renew is part of the growth I have experienced too......knowing my soul needs some nourishment for sure.........single momming a certain level of intensity that you only know when you know, and seeking nourishment that can be found among people who share some of what I feel about the divinity of it all......and we are a motley crew of folks:)......different walks of life......ages.....backgrounds......and I love and we got to watch a video last night that inspired us to chat some about what our feelings about our faith are......it was a lovely conversation.....and then we played a game called Tales, asking questions about our lives and getting to know one another better, it was fun........and life chatted.....and it was lovely way to end a hectic week......having felt I run the gauntlet to get here......so many obstacles to make my way RIGHT here.......and so much feeds my soul these days, a well placed girl's night, being blessed to have two recently, a walk in the woods, a meditation......or an adventure with my kids.....but this is a specific kind of medicine for my soul.......so I got up at 5:30 to spend some quiet time in my room.....writing and being.....and then I will shower and be present in whatever the day holds......fully being present in THIS day.......and I am guessing as my spirituality has expanded, or maybe exploded is the better word lol:) This will be a special weekend....my Pastor is doing a meditation this morning that I plan on attending.....he left the invitation open for those that wanted to, and part of my being here is because of him.......he is likely nearing retirement at some point or maybe not knowing how much he loves what he does lol:) But soaking in HIS GOODNESS and peace is a gift in it of itself.......he truly walks the walk as he talks about it all, no hypocrisy living in his faith which resonates so deeply for me......and I feel like this will be an expansive weekend. And amid the spiritual nourishment, I don't have to DO anything........my meals will be prepared........and all is taken care of.......I just have to BE in it all......tomorrow after church here I will grab my kids and go home and finish decorating for Christmas and meal prep and DO all the things lol:) But for TODAY......I get to just BE.......and that feels like exactly what I need.......my life involves a lot of "work".......but also mental "work" too.......and for today I want to sit in the retreat energy here......the quiet......reveling in every moment, and have that be enough for the day......lay down some of the balls I juggle in this life.......put them all down......my kids are safe and well loved, and today is for my allowing myself to feel the same......my son was fighting a cold this week and I was wondering if it would affect this plan, but I trusted that if it was my door to be here I would walk through it, and it was......I am a blessed human, no question and that is something that is never lost on me:) Hope you too enjoy a restorative Saturday, being good to YOU too:) xoxo