The day I needed.......

I had written about Gabe coming home sick on Saturday from his dad's house....He had texted that he wanted to come home, I had just gotten up to Bethel with my mom at the holiday shops, and I turned around and came home, and then went to get him. So we had a quiet Saturday night, which was my original intention for this weekend anyway and my kids are always welcome to come home no matter my plans.....and then I decided that yesterday I wasn't going to do much of much......I did do a smaller workout....but beyond that and showering, I hung upstairs in my room.....Gabe wanted to rest in his room and wasn't feeling well....so he watched TV....and so did I....I binged a ridiculous show....happy to just relax, and it was just the day I needed....but if you are like me, sacrificing an entire day to such things feels a little weird? Or maybe wrong some? Like wasting it? I have struggled with the art of relaxing my whole life....and now I can pinpoint different reasons for it.....some reasons more complicated than others.....but in my new life I have gotten much better at it.... giving myself the time and space, and room I need when I need it....being productive feels amazing, at least to me no question....but so does relaxing now.....so relax I did.....recharging my batteries....I did some extra meditation.....some journaling.....ate some good snacks and food.....and let the day stretch out before me....and I write about this in the hopes that somebody else out there has the same challenges, and maybe needs "permission" to just be.....permission to rest.....to relax and recharge.....I promise you are allowed;-) so we have one more day off today....first day of hunting season gets you the day off after Thanksgiving in PA;-) so I will finish up laundry, and do some paperwork I have been avoiding, and take Gabe to Urgent Care today I think.....he has only been congested so I was sorta on the fence....waiting to see what else would develop? But the last time I took him there, they did have a nasal swab that can tell any viruses within 20 minutes so that was kind of amazing.....so I think it will be worth going today a little bit later.....so today I am recharged and refueled.....ready to tackle my "to do" list.....with renewed energy and mental space.....committed to having it all wrapped up as we begin another work week! Happy Monday:) And how about that moon this morning:) So beautiful!