Like, what was THAT??

I had written about the anxiety that sorta got a hold of me when I left for Wyoming.....leaving my kids, and feeling that so deeply, needing to walk past that......I had a similar experience this weekend when they went with their dad......not for any reason but it just was......and I was speaking to a friend that also was having some of that energy bubble up......so I definitely feel it was in the ethers......energetic anxiety if you will;-) So If you have felt some jangly weird energy at certain points, you are not alone.......And I rode the wave.......pushing away the energy, and not falling victim to it......but I guess what hit me most of all was the contrast.......realizing that at one point, in my 20s I LIVED in that space pretty consistently......feeling fight or flight consume me......"what if" thinking PLAGUING me in my 20s.........and perhaps I was given a glimpse recently to remember the contrast.....to show me how far I have traveled......because now that feeling was wildly uncomfortable, but also foreign.......my faith and trust has grown bigger than any fear I have ever had......knowing that wherever I am standing, or my kids are standing is where we belong......therefore whatever storyline plays out is also the one that is meant to.......and so I used that notion as my anchor......to quell the waters that were churning inside of me.....and it was just Cancer season......astrologically.....a very maternal sign......and up in the feels.....so I think that was part of it.....and this weekend was likely because I had JUST gotten home, and didn't get my fill of my kids and having us all under one roof again:) My favorite place to be......but the discomfort that was there is what shows us where we need to let go.......because as I said the other day fear is a liar.....it is loud.......uncomfortable.......irrational.......jagged......and intuition and peace is like an anchor......quiet....steady......calm.......rational......and so while these two spaces were surprising and uncomfortable, they were temporary......and I believe there to show me the contrast I now live in......and I leaned into my anchors.......some meditation.....quiet contemplation and prayer........I have not formally worked out in a little over a week too so I am feeling that, the absence of what that brings to me too, and excited to get back into my flow again.......but if you have been feeling a little jaggedy, you are not alone......I am pretty in tune with the energetics out there these days, and there was definitely something in the air that I felt......and I suppose knowing so deeply the things that anchor me, no matter what life story finds me, gives me solace......and peace.......knowing that I have a tool box full of tools to combat whatever energy I am called to navigate.......so my kiddos and I have some things on our docket this week......and I have some chores to catch up on......I also have some more disciplined spaces I am going to find myself in......excited to up my game in some other areas of my life.....controlling what I can......letting go of what I can't and repeat:) That IS the way:) Enjoy the day! Happy Monday:)