Shaggy bangs and a new tattoo??

So this week will find me turning 50! THAT number does something lol, it is a biggie, although my students told me they think I look like I am in my 30s, so I will take it;-) It meant the most coming from my blunt and honest girl in my class, and her putting for real at the end, because she is a fierce truth teller on a regular;-) And ultimately age is a state of mind, I truly believe that.......your body will believe what your mind tells it.......And I have most definitely felt a new level of evolution these days, and in the spirit of that some new things are calling to me......I finally went and got a haircut the other day, it has been awhile.......wanting curtain bangs.....but she was conservative in her cutting of it, and said if I wanted her to go shorter with the bangs to go back this week and she would trim them quick.....and I think that is the plan.....I love the cut other than that, and wanted to keep the length I have now and keep growing it......but want a more deliberate bang......and I have been dyeing my own hair these days which is a very liberating experience lol:) The freedom that comes with doing it when you think it is time instead of juggling appointments and waiting, and saving so much money is kinda my favorite lol:)

So a new hairdo is on my radar......and a new tattoo......sorry mom and dad;-) But I love them......and I am being intentional about what I put on my body.....for sure......I have the universal sign for gratitude on my one wrist and a cross with nature and a verse I love on the other......sort of my nod to faith and gratitude being the anchors of my life........But I have a bigger piece of art formulating in my mind.....hoping to ask my dad to draw my creation for me.....and it is a nod to my biz logo some, the woman with the flowers in her mind, it feels fitting:).......only in the tattoo I would like it to have a partial of a woman's face.......her nose and mouth with her arms crossed over her chest, with the "We can do hard things" tattoo on her arm....and then the flowers in her mind being the birth flowers of myself and my kids.......there will be sun and moon as a nod to astrology.....and trees underneath her for hiking and nature.......a tiny dragonfly for my sister and representing the faith in things we cannot see but know are real.........and it is a beautiful and elegant and subtle lined creation in my mind.....contemplating putting it on my back......I also want the breathe symbol on my arm......my meditation practice having its say......and so I am spending time making sure it is all right.....not impulsively throwing forever art on my body lol, but definitely feeling the call.....and I suppose it makes sense.....when your whole identity gets shifted in a big way, the physical needs to follow, there is most definitely a pull......it happened after my divorce too......my shedding the old lady suit I thought I was going to put on quietly , thank goodness I woke up before I went too far in lol:) And my nose ring feels like me......and I guess maybe there is a subtle rebellion in all of it, not like mid life crisis rebellion but maybe a little ;-).......the feeling of freedom running through me so clearly now that making sovereign decisions related to my body and life feels important.....and hanging onto my youth forever;-).....but my journey doesn't necessarily define me in a real sense, but it is most definitely the vehicle that led me to my purpose......and so paying homage to that with a beautiful tattoo feels fitting, almost necessary......a real piece of art, not just ink.....so I suppose as I think of it the internal evolution happens, and then the external follows.....today finds baseball on the docket for my boy, and chores, and shaking off the heaviness of that moon! Happy Saturday, enjoy:) xoxox