Reunited!

Yesterday I had the pleasure of having one of my sister's besties growing up, and her kids come to play. One of them was born a day apart from my Mads......and I always love to connect with people who knew my sister so intimately......in ways that I did not.....and listen to what they remember about her.......and it was like no time had passed.....we chatted the day away.....and my mom came up too to say hi.....she had babysat this specific friend when she was little :) So that was sweet too......and the girls had fun playing.....waterslide, and bounce house with water lol:) And lots of popsicles and pizza:) This friend has moved back to our area closer, and I didn't know that, and was glad that she reached out to get together....and we plan on hitting Bushkill Falls next week, which will be fun:) She also shared she had been to a party, and there was a psychic there....and she mentioned being skeptical....but that my sister came through and it was obvious that it was her and that that part of the reading was for my sister's friend.......and she passed along a message to our family......and when her friend shared it, it was powerful for me......bringing a cascade of feelings right to my doorstep.....not in a bad way....I was glad she shared.....but in a way that makes you aware that grief lives, no matter how much time has passed......like a big wave shoved behind a door, and it can pop up in surprising and powerful ways.....I could feel it right there....and part of me likes to have something that pokes that and brings those emotions forward, because so often they stay dormant or hidden away, and are hard to access.......and I am sure there is more work for me to do in terms of that grief.....in fact I know that, and I guess there are so many places in me that hold some grief for all the people I have loved and lost......and I always marvel at the grief that we all carry.....the living within us and where it goes in our day to day....and my metaphor about the whale......and when it surfaces we see and feel that grief.....yesterday had me seeing my sister's whale.....I suppose I have several whales swimming inside of me, harboring a tangible representation of grief.....that realization finding me yesterday........and this morning finds me feeling my sister a little closer... thinking of her, and holding love and compassion for her so deeply......Happy Friday........