Karma and its ties! .........

I have pondered the idea of karma on this journey......mainly the last 5 years or so.....and not in a punitive and retributive way......I mean that.....I have worked deeply on the places in me that would want karma to have its say to those that have harmed me......I wish them well.....that is true......but I suppose if anything is true......I hope they meet themselves in another person.....that I will own.....I am not sure you can truly understand the magnitude of what you have done until you meet it.......and perhaps even then it is not possible....since we all feel things at different levels......different depths.....based on our emotional state and so much else......but none of it is up to me....and I don't spend my energy on that......I have never wished ill will on those that have betrayed me, that is true......because the fact is at one time I loved them deeply.....so I would never wish any person, especially one I once loved harm.....plus on a spiritual level I know so fully that is not my job here......AT ALL......my job is to lead with love, and forgiveness and let the rest work itself out......that is a fact......but having said all of that I believe fully in karma......and that every action has an equal reaction.......I believe that you cannot harm others, and live your life hurting people, and come out unscathed.....and live a happy and peaceful life......not unless you work on the amends part.....owning your behavior, apologizing sincerely, and completely changing your life......and I have not witnessed that yet along my journey......I have been involved in hit and runs on repeat....... But another piece of karma that I have been examining and reading about some lately is karmic ties.......and I think I recently experienced one, due to the things that are normally present in such a tie.....and the karmic lessons in the end were different for us......and I know what they were for me so clearly now......but I suppose the thing about it this morning that causes me to muse some, is that you cannot avoid the karma you sow......you can't......and I think it is why I have double downed on my intention surrounding my actions.....being super mindful of what I put out there.....every day, in every interaction, knowing that it is creating my future.....and I am not sure most people take that into consideration......and I do not do it to be rewarded......I do it to keep my ledger as clean as I can.....the last year taking that more seriously than ever......we are all human, subject to human condition, that is true.....but how we treat others is, in my opinion, is THE MOST important work we do.....not what we say......not what we think about ourselves.......ACTUAL actions.....how do people feel around us......what do we contribute to the collective.......how do we treat others......especially in the times where it is more difficult......especially if somebody is being difficult......or it is a difficult situation for you to move through with grace.....and we all have our lower selves....I have certainly given into some lower comic relief surrounding some circumstance in my life, as a means to stay sane lol:) And well humor......is life;-) But I am speaking about the overall attitude we bring to the healing process, regarding those that have harmed us.......and I have seen people get caught up in vengeance, anger, resentment....and it leads nowhere good.......it feels like it is DOING something but it isn't......karma does have a way of balancing the scales.....and I have had to battle my justice piece.....I have a deep justice part of me that struggles when things feel unfair.....but really what is fair.....it is hard to say......so I work on not getting caught in that trap......and always shifting the focus back to my own life, my own kids, and staying in my own lane........that has been the way to the magic I have found.......the best use of my energy.....not worrying about what does or doesn't for another person.......and we are all responsible for our own karmic scales.....we are......and I have done things in my life that I am not proud of.....and paid for them dearly indeed......not too many luckily, but definitely a few.....and so now I seek to "broadcast" if you will.......a different path....working hard to be conscious of good deeds.....and moving in ways that I would want for myself.....do unto others right?? Simple really.......using my frequency that I place out there for good whenever I am able:)I have also been learning to handle conflict in a more grounded and loving way.....staying rooted in truth, and love, and then leaving it, and letting it all work itself out, and I have been shown lately that it works! :) No longer subject to over explaining, or allowing my boundaries to be trampled on......I have had quite a few situations come around recently that worked out due to remaining consistent, and in my own energy.......rooted......and leaving it, and the space to work itself out or not, and letting it be what it will be.......growth:) So yea karma........it arrives for us all......and each day our actions, our intentions, and our thoughts are creating the karma that finds us.......and our karmic blueprint is written in the stars.....and we are living in the story we are supposed to.......karmic love isn't meant to go the distance, I have learned........it is meant to show us places that need to change, so we can find the love that will:) Amen.......xoxo Happy Friday, we made it, this week was a doozy;-)