I would never have imagined....

Sometimes it strikes me.....quite profoundly that you really never know.......really......I never would have imagined my life today 4 years ago....it would have been foreign in every way...but yet........here I am....and I suppose being shown that in this chapter has been a big lesson.....a lesson in never say never- or think that things can't happen to you, but also never discount magic showing up.....my life before was very solid in lots of ways and reliable feeling, till it wasn't......and so it was predictable in nearly every way....and now it isn't.....many variables and wild cards lying around every corner. And that used to be something that may have rattled my cage and terrified me.....and now it doesn't, at all......I have grown to love the journey and be present in it and curious about what is next....I had some time to kill as I was traveling and I cleaned out my texts.....and I found the text thread from the other woman.....the one where she told me my ex husband was still having an affair with her, despite my believing it was over.....and as I read the words in that text exchange. Reading hers and mine back and forth.....I felt nothing....and I mean that so sincerely....no heart racing, or anger, or hurt pop up, just acceptance and indifference......true healing I believe......just relief that it is over, that the charade has ended......and he is hers fully, and has been for a long time.....and I have felt that so clearly.......but it was very confirming and eye opening to read that again, after so long and feel such peace.....and I suppose that is in line with what I said too, I never would have imagined. Four years ago, swimming in pain and complication of epic proportions, and today not doing that.....The sting of it all no longer stinging......very few places that still hurt and linger....so if you are reading and feel stuck or unhappy where you are, or you cannot imagine a way out, or through, or past, let this be a reminder that all of that is possible and more, I promise, I see you and am cheering you on!! have a great day!😀