Deep Winter musing.....

I normally enjoy winter..... snow.... cozy nights by the fire...... hiking in the woods during winter and amid the quiet....beautiful sunshine on all of the white.....but I have reached the enough part of winter....the ice has been challenging and the deep cold.....I had to get oil again yesterday to the tune of 3.79 a gallon, yikes...... and I am over it....the kids at my school are going stir crazy as well, as we haven't been able to go out as much as we normally do....and I think most folks are looking toward spring! And this blog is not intended to complain about winter endlessly lol:) bear with me lol:) there is a point in mind;-)....I think the intensity of this winter is sort of a metaphor for enduring....and acceptance, and the rest....and I am a proactive person often, wanting to do, and figure out, and solve....and this winter has been oppressive in a way that has asked for acceptance....like my driveway being a sheet of ice, despite my best attempts to have that not be so.....snow blowing over the weekend for hours, and getting sopping wet and yet....there is all of the ice....and sometimes life is like that....no matter what we try, and do, we are still met with resistance or the outcome we did not want.......and that theme is present at certain times.....and as it surfaces I always ask myself what I am being called to do....and winter calls for us to go within and restore...........and take stock of the life we are living and where we are headed......so that is what I am doing....while I am also finding a way to accept that winter is likely going to last another month......March is a tough one sometimes.....and I know we all love that feeling....where spring peeks its head......a rogue 60 degree day in March that feels like oxygen......after the long winter....and Saturday will be 35 so that will be a start;-) And next week's temps are peeking above the arctic freeze......and this winter has been arduous in lots of ways for me....and I yearn for lighter days....and the buoyancy of spring coming toward us....the levity it brings....getting back out amid the trees, and breathing in their goodness.....so for now I will hang on, and go within.....and enjoy the cozying in......the crackling of the fire........and we are having a dinner for Mads this weekend to celebrate her......and lately amid the wind chill some grief spots have arisen in a few places.......reminding me of the changing seasons of our lives.....and I seek to feel what comes, and let the rest go, moving forward.....always forward......leaning in on the strength to endure.........