Ahhhh.......

So this morning I am up way too early getting ready for an inservice day.....while most of the surrounding area schools have off today......but I am basking in the afterglow of my weekend of solitude.....it was really what I had needed after last week.....last week was hi def no doubt....busy and crazy in every way.....and the weekend felt like a finish line of sorts.....a place to catch my breath.....and I am glad I chose that.....I am always torn about making plans when the kids are away.....using that space to go and do stuff, or to just relax and spend it on my own.....and I had had so many chores that had piled up under the weight of a busy life, that it was time to stop and do it all......so as I type this, my outside stuff is done.....my house is clean.....and I had done some revamping of my workout space......allowing room for the army of plants that I rescued from the outside with the frost we got! The kids had a fun weekend.....they enjoyed their time and brought home some gnarly bumpy pumpkins that are so cute......and what else is there really?? Not much I can hope for or wish for......sometimes these days too, on this every other weekend cycle, I even feel a little guilty.....knowing that most moms don't get nearly the respite I do now......I spent years not taking any time away from my kids to do something for me......and that isn't the right way.....the little bit of respite I now have is part of my self care.....it feels like a shot in the arm.....and helps me regroup too.....all moms should get some time for them too.....I miss them fiercely while they are gone....and think of them the entire time......but I have learned to let go of worry or fret.......relaxing in allowing them their time......and honoring it and respecting it.........I also did a big face your fear kinda thing this weekend......my garage is attached to my house, and I get mice in my garage.....and sometimes during this time of year some inside......and there were two snap traps set and guess what......two dead mice in them yesterday morning......now in my old life.......I would never have been able to muster the courage to get rid of those traps on my own.....but as with so many other things these days my fear has diminished......and I took care of it:) Even though I didn't like it.....lol:) My fear in this life subsiding and vanishing into the background.......And yesterday as I walked the woods, I prayed aloud......all by myself......in the solace among the trees......thanking God and the universe for its divine blessings that I have been given on this journey......and the gratitude I feel for those blessings......and soon I found a tiny cross lying on the path......and then a few more.....confirmation of it being heard within the forest walls......so cool and such a gift......so I feel recharged and ready for this week......to tackle whatever comes......it is slated to be a quieter week, I will take it:)