The stars aligned.....wheels up!

I have learned in this chapter to trust the rhythm of life.......in a way I had never before......the synchronicity and flow has become so clear and apparent to me now, and I know when I am in the flow or making moves from that place......and today IS the day I head to Wyoming....a trip I almost let myself say no to.....my logical responsible self having her say....and then I got a text from my friend I am visiting at the same time, showing me so clearly that the answer needed to be YES.....and since I made the decision the way has appeared, paving the way for it to all come together effortlessly......but it doesn't come cleanly......when I became a mother to a special needs kiddo.......one that might need my care all of my days, the responsibility was awesome......just huge, right square on my shoulders and a silent prayer in my heart.....and then single motherhood came along and said "hold my beer girl,".....and so I am feeling the weight of that this morning some......but choosing to lean into the gift that this is as the bigger piece......my kids are wildly excited to hang with my parents and have the time of their life for a few days while I am gone, despite expressing how much they will miss their mama xox0......and I suppose that the weight I am feeling some is surprising me.......I feel much more levity these days.....but I also know it is a normal part of these kinds of things......it is not mother's guilt......just the awareness that I am flying far away from my people and that is a thing......it just is......and I know the minute the wheels go up I will feel that with my whole chest.....but part of this journey for me has been about saying yes way more than no......about being brave.....pushing through discomfort to allow room for growth......so that is where this morning finds me......my car service will come and get me at 9 to bring me to LaGuardia and I have a long day of travel ahead.......and in my old life this likely would not have been a reality for me....I would not have said yes......for so many reasons......and I would have watched this trip unfold for my friend, the gathering she has planned from home, and the sidelines.......from my couch.....and instead I hold a place of sovereignty in my own life now that allowed for me to make this trip a reality for ME......wanting to show my kids that it is OK to say yes to you and do things that nourish your soul beyond your responsibilities......and that faith is worth the effort......trusting that everything is always working out for you.....because it really is.......and that is what I am leaning into this morning, letting the discomfort come and trusting the magic that is on the other side of it.......choosing to settle into whatever new and wonderful experiences await me.......and I guess the bigger part of me this morning too is sitting in the awe that THIS is my life now......one that has been FULL of all of these extraordinary experiences I have gotten to have in all sorts of ways....ones that I could not even imagine in my old life and yet here I am:) And I suppose that feels big too....I have some friends battling some big things this week with their family members, and maybe I feel guilty about that some too......getting to live this version of this week versus the one that they are.....and I know that is not rational totally but it is honest......and I know that we all have times in our journey where we walk through trials and tribulations and ones where we get to see the sunrise and chase rainbows......and mine is the latter this week......I have known my friend I am going to visit since elementary school.....and the fact that this birthday extravaganza is falling during Mercury Retrograde is even more ironic:) The time when we revisit the past and our relationships that live there.......so this time we are about to share was written in the stars long ago and a part of our divine path with one another and I cannot wait to experience it all:) This friend was touched by the life changing magic I have been and I used to watch her and marvel at the way she was living.......cruising on the cosmic highway....and at the time my life was different and heavier but we always visited and she would come and share her adventures with me......and now I feel like we are vibing at such a similar frequency, and her support of me in every chapter has been so felt and appreciated. And now I finally get to travel to HER place.....and see her life up close and personal and that feels like something! Stay tuned:) Enjoy the day! xoxo