Do I entertain you???

This title today is a little play on words........because it has come to mean so much to me.....I am having some of my co workers for lunch today.....and it is hands down one of my FAVORITE things to do.......to entertain people in my home.....and it is deep within me.....it has come up in my astrology too, but I did not need that to confirm that it is one of MY things......I seek to have people enter my home, and immediately feel cared for....in whatever ways that means.....cooking.....candles......soft lighting......retreat type vibes......and love:) And it is so real......this desire.....and it is not one that comes from me wanting to impress......or have that external acknowledgement.....although it is nice to hear that somebody felt those things in my space........but making people feel magic, and cozy is my favorite......the other night my parents came for dinner, and I did it all up for them too.....candlelight.....beauty.....good food......and it is for sure from my Taurus Sun and her Venus ruling gal.......the one that loves beautiful things.....and decadent parts of this life......although deeply balanced by my disciplined version right lol:) the working out, meal prepping healthy meals one;-) Although she gets outvoted sometimes......and as I say that, I guess I see the push pull that has always existed there........balance right:) But the entertaining piece also has a deeper place......the one that I have done in my romantic relationships.....and that version made me feel I had to compete for love......run faster......jump higher......wield magic........create cozy spaces....all of it.......while unable to express my needs at all, and have them met.....and that hurts some......I know some of those things will live on in memories.....and likely hold good feels for them......but I lost myself in all of that.......honestly believing for SOOOO long that I had to try for love, work hard to keep it, and that is sad for me this morning as I have learned that is not true......and as I have explored my shadow side, realizing that I tried and loved in ways that I wanted to be loved......acts of service......words of affirmation......on repeat.........intimacy a given......and it ALL brought me joy......setting a beautiful table.......cooking a delicious meal, rooted in my heart.......making the ordinary special, or a little magical.......taking a theme and running with it......today we do Mexican:).......and I suppose it is where the allure comes in for me for my future retreat space.......perhaps the Olympics of this skill set......creating a space where people come to FEEL all of that.......I have already dreamed it all up in my meditation, and the beautiful and unique spaces that will be found there......creating beauty and love....and a place for people to feel cared for.......getting to rest their weary nervous system......we all need that right...? :) And I came into this world with a unique set of gifts, as we all did.....I truly believe that, and the best way to utilize them is the work we need to do.......and I am watching the way to use it all appearing.......and I think recently I realized the power in just being ourselves, with gifts nobody else can take......or copy.......or use......we are all uniquely ourselves no matter what others do, and that feels pretty special:) So today I entertain some of my people.....and am looking forward to seeing them.....and loving on them, and I ordered a few things to begin to put my new classroom together......in my old room I had brick contact paper......and it looked like a huge brick wall in the back and I loved it......so I am tweaking it some....and doing a different pattern for the new space, as I embark on 5th grade adventures........because I also seek to have my students have that same feeling......all cozied in and stuff:) Happy Monday, enjoy the day:)